x life isn’t perfect.
iv’e learnt that the hard way.. iv’e lost and iv’e gained, even though the loss has hurt, i know everything happens for a reason. i lost a family member; meant the world to me, was always there for me growing up, she was the best auntie you could ask for, played games, baked together, took me places, bought me crap stuff but it meant something because it was from her, and most of all she loved me. i lost the ‘love of my life’ was my choice, a hurtful choice but the right choice. i lost a lot of friends, from leaving school and moving on in the world to college, i miss them people, but life’s taught me that they cant of being that good of friends if they haven’t stayed in touch or made the effort i tried to make. but iv’e gained real friends in the last couple of months, my work friends, friends that i don’t know all that well but i can trust 100% and i have a laugh with.. friends that have been there for me when one of my ‘best friends’ hasn’t even asked if i’m OK, friends that i know will be in my life for a long time. iv’e gained someone that means the world to me, he might not be perfect in other people’s eyes and yes he hurt me once and their’s nothing stopping him hurting me again, but i trust him, i trust him more then i trust myself, he makes me smile, constantly smile, he tell’s me i’m beautiful, he looks after me when i’m ill and down, he makes me laugh, he gets me drunk and then makes sure i’m OK all night long, he may not be mine but he’s as good as and i no he’s the one, not a day/ hour/ minute/ second goes by that i’m not thinking about him and i hope one day everything will be perfect between two un-perfect people, being us. their’s also people that i haven’t gained or lost because them people have been their for me all along, my mum, my dad, my two brothers, my uncle, my brothers girlfriend, and my bestest friend in the whole world; these people are the reason i’m still here, still breathing, still typing all this shit out that no one actually gives a fuck about, apart from them, they get me, they’re there for me, yes, they make me mad A LOT but they’re only caring and i under stand that and i’m thank full for them in my life. so yeah, life’s not perfect, but you just got to ignore the bad and past and look forward to the good and the future, because at the end of it, you only live once.
